Thursday, January 7, 2010

The finish line.

I seem to have gotten off track of what my primary mission was when creating this blog. I've shared some stories of awareness, lessons learned, etc. but I haven't really given myself a reality check with the goals I had set a little over a year ago.

I do feel like I become a better mom every day. Sure, I stumble from time to time and there are days I'd say I'm a terrible mother but for the most part, I'm proud of who I am as a mother...this of course is on-going as my children get older and new challenges come about.

I have failed miserably in terms of strengthening my faith. I remember a conversation I had with our former priest while I was deciding whether or not to become Catholic and he had said that raising my family to be avid church-goers was ultimately up to me. And over the past year, I have neglected to enforce my own feelings and beliefs regarding where God should be in my life. So this is a goal that continues and I hope I can make a positive change.

My career...that's a tough one. I love my job. I love the industry I work in. I hate recessions. I hate limited budgets. And I have felt the negativity rise and fall and rise and fall...you get the picture. I feel that I can always work on being positive and improving my craft. So, while I feel that I am fighting the good fight, I just need to work on doing it in a more positive light.

Fitness is another biggie. I had set a goal for myself to run a full marathon. 26.2 miles. I don't want to be a competitor, I just want the opportunity to say that I did it. I feel like I let an injury keep me from accomplishing this goal last year and while I've lost the baby weight and then some, I still feel that I could be more fit. I could be more passionate about running. And I have to achieve this goal this year before I hit the 31 mark.

And lastly, my novel. I have high hopes. I have ideas roughed out on little pieces of paper. And I have this vision that while I'm sunning myself in Jamaica this winter, I'll have seven days of brilliance to get the foundation set for a best seller. We'll see...now if only I could get myself a fancy little netbook :)

There are more, but this is where I'm at with those closest to my heart. I of course have goals of improving my marriage and my friendships and those will be on-going as well. So I guess stay tuned and if you have any advice on how I can improve myself...aside from liposuction, botox and designer fashions...I'm always open.